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Wednesday, March 7, 2012

Going, Going, Gone!

Well, I did it. I shaved my head. Was my hair falling out in clumps? No, but it was coming out multiple strands at a time which was gross enough for me. I'm pretty sure that if I had an entire clump come out it would have been enough to send me screaming. So, I decided to be proactive. I have to admit, I look like a bruiser, the newest member of Fight Club...ugh. Bald is not a great look for me but the good news is that I'm pretty sure no one would mess with me in some dark alley. Consider that a warning :). I was most concerned about how Stella would react and it didn't seem to phase her at all. That kid really can roll with the punches. I ordered a great hat online that I really love along with a scarf and one of those turban looking things. I like all of them. My mom sent me a really cool hat with hair and when wearing that, I look the closest to me I think I'll get for a while. At some point I need to go wig shopping. Hopefully I'll be struck by divine intervention because at the moment, I have no idea which direction I want to go with that.

I have my second round of chemo on Friday. I'm not nervous, now that I know what to expect. I am curious to see how I'll feel after this round. I had dinner with a good friend last night that I hadn't seen in ages. I was so happy to see her and catch up and well, feel normal. I even ran into one of my former students who was hosting at the bistro. I don't think he even noticed that I didn't have any hair, although I did have my fabulous hat on.

I won't lie and say that shaving my head was some big revelation or event. I would say it was much more anticlimatic that I anticipated. Steve did a good job and it was over with quickly. If I'm being honest, I hate that I had to shave my head. Even on my worst hair days, at least I still had hair. I watch "What Not to Wear" all the time and never quite understood what they meant by hiding behind your hair. Now I totally get it and I have nowhere to hide. But, I'm slowly getting used to my new "look", my first visible battle scar. And really, if the worst thing that happens is me losing my hair, we'll call it a major victory!

2 comments:

  1. Good For You!!!! That was one of the hardest things for my mom to deal with...the losing hair slowly. So proud of you for biting the bullet and just doing it! And...it will grow back...maybe even curly. They say things like that can happen. Ugh...remember me trying to make your hair wavy in college. HAHA!

    Love you

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  2. Can you imagine how much fun we could have talking about all the possiblities you have for wigs. We could spot specific students in the hall and go for their look. I am so proud of how you are taking this journey with humor and courage. Love you!

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