Backing Up the Truck

I suck at making decisions. It's a big, big weakness and I can be such a procrastinater when it comes to making really big, important decisions. For example: I'm currently interviewing people for a nanny position. Wait. Back up the truck. What did I just say??? Did hell just freeze over? Possibly but definitely not in Georgia, it's 987 degrees here today... Yes, I'm in the process of hiring a part time nanny because with radiation being every single day for 7 weeks, I need someone to watch the kids. Bringing them to radiation is not an option (just what I need, a couple of radioactive kids) and really, why would I drag them there anyway? So, it's been a good run and I've held out as long as I could, but we just can't make this work without some help. There, I said it, the H word...help. Not my favorite word by far. Wish me luck, I am WAY too nice when it comes to telling people no. It's not unreasonable to have 6 nannies, right? Just kidding...sort of.

It's been an interesting couple of weeks. I had a chance to talk with my chemo pal Kate yesterday. Our schedules have not been meshing and I haven't seen her since June. To be honest, it's been kind of a tough break. While I've been getting great news and seeing tons a progress, Kate hasn't had it so easy. Right before I had my surgery, she found out that her tumor hadn't shrunk enough for her to be a surgery candidate. She has to have two more rounds of chemo and they'll reevaluate after that. I CANNOT fathom having to endure two more rounds of chemo, she is a true warrior. I've gone through a lot of my treatment with blinders on in the sense that everyone should be having success like me. The truth is, many people aren't having much luck at all and that's been a huge wake-up call to me. It's so unfair and it makes me furious. Kate and I have literally had every treatment together since March so when she wasn't there when I had my last treatment I was seriously bummed. The good news is that I'll be there for her last chemo treatment in a few weeks and we'll be back on track. I can't really explain how much it means to have someone going through what I'm going through and be able to share the experience. I guess it makes having cancer feel a little less lonely.

I have approximately 45 doctors appointments next week. Not really, but it feels like that many. I was hoping to get home to Virginia before radiation started but now it's looking like I will have to wait until after. Everybody wants a piece of my day! Gosh darn it's hard being this popular... Oh well, there's nothing like Georgia in August. Cool and breezy... under the AC vent at least.